Series 1: 1. I love you, I miss you

A suicide bombing in Iraq and a home video from inside the ISIS caliphate begin the search for a family trapped in Syria. A desperate plea arrives from an American woman who says she wants to escape the Islamic State group with her young children.

This episode includes descriptions of violence and some upsetting scenes involving children.

Reporter: Josh Baker

Written by: Josh Baker and Joe Kent

Producers: Joe Kent and Max Green

Production assistant: Lucie Sullivan

Composer: Sam Slater

Sound Design and Mix: Tom Brignell

Series Editor: Emma Rippon

Commissioning Executive: Dylan Haskins

Commissioning Editor: Jason Phipps

“I’m Not a Monster” is a collaboration between BBC Panorama and FRONTLINE (PBS) and is a BBC Radio Current Affairs production for BBC Sounds.